A story of bipolar disorder (manic-depressive illness)
Does this sound like you?
Are you feeling really "down" sometimes and really "up" other times? Are these mood changes causing problems at work, school, or home? If yes, you may have bipolar disorder, also called manic-depressive illness.
" I’ve had times of feeling "down" and sad most of my life. I used to skip school a lot when I felt like this because I just couldn’t get out of bed. At first I didn’t take these feelings very seriously.
"I also had times when I felt really terrific, like I could do anything. I felt really "wound up" and I didn’t need much sleep. Sometimes friends would tell me I was talking too fast. But everyone around me seemed to be going too slow.
"My job was getting
more stressful each week, and the "up" and "down" times
were coming more often. My wife and friends said that I was acting very different
from my usual self. I kept telling them that everything was fine, there was
no problem, and to leave me alone.
" Then, all of a sudden, I couldn't keep it together. I stopped going to work and stayed in bed for days at a time. I felt like my life wasn't worth living anymore. My wife made an appointment for me to see our family doctor and went with me. The doctor checked me out and then sent me to a psychiatrist, who is an expert in treating the kinds of problems I was having.
talked with me about how I'd been feeling and acting over the last six months.
We also talked about the fact that my grandfather had serious ups and downs
like me. I wasn't real familiar with "bipolar disorder," but it
sure sounded like what I was going through. It was a great relief to finally
know that the ups and downs really were periods of "mania" and "depression" caused
by an illness that can be treated.
" For four months now, I've been taking a medicine to keep my moods stable and I see my psychiatrist once a month. I also see someone else for "talk" therapy, which helps me learn how to deal with this illness in my everyday life.
"The first several weeks were hard before the medicine and talk therapy started to work. But now, my mood changes are much less severe and don't happen as often. I'm able to go to work each day, and I'm starting to enjoy things again with my family and friends."
Many people who have bipolar disorder don’t know they have it. This booklet can help. It tells you about four steps you can take to understand and get help for bipolar disorder.
Four steps to understand and get help for bipolar disorder:
Look for signs of bipolar disorder.
Read the following lists.
Put a check mark check mark by each sign that sounds like you now or in the past:
Signs of mania (ups)
- I feel
like I'm on top of the world.
- I feel powerful. I can do anything I want, nothing can stop me.
- I have lots of energy.I don't seem to need much sleep.
- I feel restless all the time.
- I feel really mad.
- I have a lot of sexual energy.
- I can't focus on anything for very long.
- I sometimes canít stop talking and I talk really fast.
- I'm spending lots of money on things I don't need and can't afford.
- Friends tell me that I've been acting differently. They tell me that I'm starting fights, talking louder, and getting more angry.
Signs of depression (downs)
- I am really sad most of the time.
- I don't enjoy doing the things I've always enjoyed doing.
- I don't sleep well at night and am very restless.
- I am always tired. I find it hard to get out of bed.
- I don't feel like eating much.
- I feel like eating all the time.
- I have lots of aches and pains that don't go away.
- I have little to no sexual energy.
- I find it hard to focus and am very forgetful.
- I am mad at everybody and everything.
- I feel upset and fearful, but can't figure out why.
- I don't feel like talking to people.
- I feel like there isn't much point to living, nothing good is going to happen to me.
- I don't like myself very much. I feel bad most of the time.
- I think about death a lot. I even think about how I might kill myself.
signs of bipolar disorder
- I go back and forth between feeling really "up" and feeling really "down."
- My ups and downs cause problems at work and at home.
If you checked several boxes in these lists, call your doctor. Take the lists to show your doctor. You may need to get a checkup and find out if you have bipolar disorder.
Bipolar disorder is more than the usual ups and downs of life. It is a serious medical illness that involves the brain. The up feelings are called mania and the down feelings are called depression.
Most people with bipolar disorder go back and forth between mania and depression. Some people have both feelings at the same time, which is called a mixed state.
More than 2 million Americans have bipolar disorder. It can happen to anyone, no matter what age you are or where you come from.
You may want to know why you feel these extreme ups and downs. There may be several causes.
Bipolar disorder is a serious illness, but it can be treated. You can feel better.
Sometimes bipolar disorder can cause people to feel like killing themselves.
If you are thinking about killing yourself or know someone who is talking about it, get help:
Don't wait. Talk to your doctor about how
you are feeling. Get a medical check-up to rule out any other illnesses that might be causing your mood changes. Ask your doctor to send you to a psychiatrist (a medical doctor trained in helping people with bipolar disorder).
If you don't have a doctor, check your local phone book. Go to the government services pages (they may be blue in color) and look for "health clinics" or "community health centers." Call one near you and ask for help.
There are two common types of treatment for bipolar disorder: (1) medicine and (2) "talk" therapy. Having both kinds of treatment usually works best. It is important to get help because bipolar disorder can get worse without treatment. Bipolar disorder is a long-term illness that needs to be treated throughout a person's lifetime.
If you know someone who is having severe mood changes and may need help, here are some things you can do:
You can call or write any of these organizations for free information about bipolar disorder. You can also find more information on their web sites. "Free call" phone numbers can be used free by any-one, anywhere in the United States.
National Institute of Mental
Office of Communications
6001 Executive Boulevard
Room 8184, MSC 9663
Bethesda, MD 20892-9663
Free call: 1-866-615-6464
Local call: 301-443-4513
Hearing impaired (TTY): 301-443-8431
Web site: http://www.nimh.nih.gov
National Alliance for the Mentally
Colonial Place Three
2107 Wilson Blvd., Suite 300
Arlington, VA 22201-3042
Free call: 1-800-950-6264
Local call: 703-524-7600
Free call - hearing impaired (TDD): 1-888-344-6264
Web site: http://www.nami.org
Depression & Bipolar
Support Alliance (DBSA)
730 N. Franklin Street - #501
Chicago, IL 60610-7224
Free call: 1-800-826-3632
Local call: 312-642-0049
Web site: www.DBSAlliance.org
National Foundation for Depressive
Illness, Inc. (NAFDI)
P.O. Box 2257
New York, NY 10116
Free call: 1-800-239-1265
Local call: 212-268-4260
Web site: http://www.depression.org
National Mental Health Association
2001 N. Beauregard Street, 12th Floor
Alexandria, VA 22311
Free call: 1-800-969-6642
Local call: 703-684-7722
Free call - hearing impaired (TTY): 1-800-433-5959
Web site: http://www.nmha.org
Child & Adolescent
1187 Willmette Avenue, PMB #331
Willmette, IL 60091
Local call: 847-256-8525
Web site: http://www.bpkids.org
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